December 2011
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I am working on a set list
for a show my wonderful friend got me. I am having such a hard time practicing one of the songs, it keeps making me cry.
Gets hard
Sometimes it feels like my family is falling apart.
I’ve always treasured our togetherness.
I hate this.
“For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you...”
– Romans 8: 15-17
Romans 8
Love! God is super amazing. This is really hard, staying focused and walking, but it’s so worth it.
Joy!
Ah! I missed having a life marked with Joy. God totally restored that last night.
All day I just keep finding pieces of my heart that He has made whole again.
He gave me someone to talk to about Him today. Someone I’ve known for a while but never got to connect with and he wanted me to tell him about my conversation with God.
I am so humbled. I don’t deserve any of this. Even...
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There are not words.
I had the most amazing conversation with God last night, but it was like, His Spirit spoke to my spirit and my mind didn’t catch much of it, but my heart is better. It feels whole and it hasn’t in a long time.
I decided when I got of work early last night that I was gonna talk to God because I haven’t been doing that. I have just felt so horribly enslaved. I know that’s...
favoriteofmydreams:
Take Care - Copeland
I will...
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My co-worker flipped when I said I don't need a...
Like really, I am not gonna fall over dead if no one asks me out soon. I’ve spent 22 of my 23 years of life happily single.
He actually said, “You’re not gay right?”
Haha! Second time not looking for a boyfriend has gotten that reaction.
I’m not a lesbian, I’m just not desperate. I know what I’m worth and I don’t need a guy to show me that, I...
“Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn” - Hellogoodbye
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I want to record a video of one of my songs
but the audio is coming out all distorted and I don’t know how to make it stop it. It’s like it’s way too sensitive and my voice is very loud. haha
Never really knowing if someone got my ask...
is forcing me to get over my fear that I’m annoying the crap out of everyone. I must face the reality that maybe they’re not answering because they just didn’t get it.
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I love my dad
I’m listening to Oh, Sleeper on Spotify and dad comes in during one of the little commercial things and asks “is that like the radio?” I don’t feel like explaining spotify, so I say, “Yeah.” Oh, Sleeper comes back on. “Like, devil radio? Like 7734 upside down on your radio dial?” hahahaha! I really think him and the guys in Oh, Sleeper would love...
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I need this off my chest.
I’ve been facing this. For the first time my whole life, I’ve been facing this.
I am being pushed away while she self destructs.
I can’t save her and I don’t know that she’ll ever open her eyes and see our love.
I don’t know that she’ll ever let that be enough. That she’ll ever let any love be enough.
I don’t know that she’ll ever...
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This is why I don't watch the news:
They were talking about how our congressmen have billionaires. Right, ‘cause they know what this recession feels like for the working class.
I couldn’t live with myself if I stayed in a hotel that cost $10,000 a night.
esp. if I am supposed to be serving a nation in recession.
Jerks.
I have issues buying myself clothes because I know that while I am poor by America’s...
Thanks God. :)
This is what I was afraid of....
God…help. :/
“Dear God, lift me up from this ground of pain
The heat has reached a degree...”
– Oh, Sleeper (via jeyzaremery)
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Yeah, I’m just gonna listen to sosaveme all day. Sounds like a plan.
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“I’ll avert my steadfast gaze. Replaced with guilt and this awkward shame....”
– The Garden by sosaveme
Me: God, I'm so sorry I let you down again...
God: Let me down? Child, don't be silly. You can't let me down because you don't support me. I support me. And I support you. And guess what... I'm not going to let you down.
I know two girls who have become prostitutes.
I wish there was more I could do to fix things in this world. Something to let these girls know that they are worth so much more than that. Something to let those men know that there is more to this life than money.
Not the most optimistic thoughts to be having on Christmas.
Christ came to die to save us, if I am His hands and feet, then there must be work to do if I could focus on His voice...
Oh my God, Carcassi Etudes....
*drool* I am such a music nerd.
Currently tormenting myself looking at sheet music
that I shouldn’t buy because I couldn’t possibly learn all of it right now. I only have month before school starts and I am once again told what I am to learn on guitar.
My favorite thing about God
is that He doesn’t change.
Nothing normal happened this year for Christmas, the only thing that stayed the same was the fact that we celebrate Christmas in remembrance of the fact that God came down as a child, God dressed as man, to save humanity.
Even with everything else out of whack, Christmas is still Christmas because Christ never changes or fails.
Merry Christmas. :) I think...
“For a child has been born—for us!
the gift of a son—for us!
He will take...”
– Isaiah 9:6 (MSG)
:)
My dad records tv shows and watches them later.
He’s sleeping through this one for the second time that I know of. haha
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Soo...
The thing about listening to Children of Fire by Oh, Sleeper in my car is there are lots of awkward moments at stop signs and lights. Today I stopped at a stop sign and there was a guy begging and when we locked eyes I realized that I was listening to the end of The Marriage of Steel and Skin. “You gotta cut, cut, till the head comes off!” That guy probably thinks I am nuts.
...
My college gave me a Christmas present
got my degree in the mail today. :D
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I am not gonna hope it gets better
because it might not.
My hope will rest in the fact that God is good regardless of what happens.
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“Every darkest night must give way to the dawn…”
– Darkest Night by Dorean Lives
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“He’s my Lord and savior. I believe that He is the only thing keeping...”
– Micah Kinard
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My playlist for the day:
Mozart’s Requiem in D minor, Eine Kliene Nachtmusik, Concerto grosso in A minor, Symphony no.25 in G minor, Death Cab for Cutie: Codes and Keys, Dorean Lives: A Cold Fire From the One I Loved, Panda Bear: Person Pitch, o’brother: In Comparison to Me, and a tad of Bach: Toccata and Fugue in D minor. :)
I’m gonna play solitaire and listen to music for hours.
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I am the end of the World.: Fuck yeah, cultured... →
jalapenobiscuits:
After Mozart passed away, the town drunk heard some strange noises coming from the grave site. Terrified, he ran and got the priest. He bent close to the headstone and heard some faint, unrecognizable music. The frightened priest got the town magistrate. He listened for a minute and said, “Ah,…
FYI:
Today turned out to be amazing. I don’t know if everything is gonna fall apart again, but whatever comes I am just gonna trust that God is not trying to destroy me or my family and face it. It will hurt like Hell I’m sure, but I’d rather go through the fire in this life, hand clasped tightly by Christ than find the fire at the end.
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look at the sound of all these people on fire. I want to be on fire, do you want to be on fire? but we don’t love ourselves enough, we pack our hearts with medicine choke our lungs with broke down tries of lesser men I’d rather give you my name instead of just forget it because I carry it, but I don’t want to carry it and so I’ll follow you vision and listen with my eyes every maze and...
God, I can't deal with this.
but I don’t have a choice.
I feel like I am stuck one side of a glass wall. I can’t do a thing about what is going on on the other side. I am just stuck watching.
I don’t think anyone really understands that my heart is in little tiny pieces rubbing together in my chest. I feel like I am dying. There is nothing I can do.
My only consolation: God is on both sides of the...
I doubt myself rather completely.
I finally got all my grades. Nothing lower than a B, as usual. I spent all semester in a panic thinking I was gonna destroy my GPA this term but it is right where I left it. Now if I could only learn how to do it without freaking out, that’d be awesome…but maybe its my freaking out that gets the job done. I dunno. haha!
This has been the hardest semester ever though, so glad...
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Spotify is intrupting my Eine Kleine Nachtmusik...
Stop it! I know it’s different tracks, but it is one piece!